You're Not Skinny

By Gracie Smavik

You're not skinny

  is what becomes etched in my head,

in my brain.

It keeps calling to me 140 140 140.

What's gonna be next 150 160 170?

It keeps adding,

it keeps bulging,

all I can do is picture the flab,

the arms.

the fat

just growing and growing until I'm swallowed.

I'm swallowed and no one can hear me

because I'm buried buried in this skin.

Everyone screams skinny skinny!

And all my mind hears is

whale

cow

heifer.

What does this madness do to take a toll?

Oh just nothing, I'm not fat you say ?

When your size doesn't fit society take a step on the scale

and see that when the numbers add up you'll finally understand.

That flabs of skin are more than just a flaw.

It is life.

It is the only thing that matters anymore.

I should not be defined by the ideal image.

But when that image is the only one shown.

You learn to want it...to be it.

No matter how different of that image you are to become. 

DEFINED.LEARN.BE. BECOME.